MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- My soon to be ex was a monster today. He’s made threats and he’s been passive and cruel here and there but today it was many things - all “digital abuse”Calling me crazy is one thing.Denial is nothing new. He says I must have heard that...
- And it’s not even half over.Brutal honesty I’m so over life. That is a big bold statement and I mean it. I can’t do anything but today, I have thrown hope out the window for someone else to catch. This is a day I am just getting through. I’m...
- TWWe all have those things that take us back to our childhood.Dont tell we will both get in troubleBoth of getting in trouble meant I got double trouble If I didn’t need medical attention it didn’t happen - are you okay? Yes. End of discussion....
- I learned a lot this week.Had a trigger I couldn’t recognize. Those always bug me. It seems like I always know when it’s something I can figure out. Nothing seemed triggering but I was consumed with anxiety and instantly had trouble breathing....
- The new schedule is hard on all of us. We are used to having a week day off together to regroup and relax. That is no longer a thing and I’m severely depleted after this week. It’s not just the kids. Parents are both home this weekend also....
- An update for anyone who cares.....Work: I don’t hear humor very well. People joke about work related tasks and I act but they’re joking or I’m just confused bc it doesn’t make sense. That’s hard. TW I don’t hear humor because things...
- coubselor says waking up so anxious means I’m having nightmares but I don’t recall any dreams really.....anyone relate? She suggesyed benedryl to help me sleep bc I have terrible allergies as it is and antihistamines are often prescribed for...
- I had an epiphany today.....Wondering how others can still function and keep their head on straight when others cross boundaries and are offensive or abandon me, I realized that this last few days of “facing the music” after solidifying...
- I’m wanting to journal, needing to journal, but also a little lazy and more than anything, I just want to talk to a human. I want a real life human with hands and feet and skin and everything to tell me that it’s okay that I don’t know what...
- I had to send my brother an email. He sent my kids gifts after all. They just got lost and came late. I’m sending them back. I solidified boundaries and told him if he’s not in my life he can’t be in theirs either.Last time I did this, also...
- I drive for two of those grocery/restaurant delivery services as a second job. Usually I do this when the kids are asleep (since we live with my parents) or when they’re with their Dad. Lately I’ve been too anxious to do this. I think it was a...
- I won’t post my specific meditations for today because they are Bible verses and I’m not sure that’s allowed but the gist of it is that I am not alone, I have nothing to fear and no earthly opinions matter except for mine. If you want the...
- This is probably a question for my counselor and I will ask her should I remember to but I keep seeing CPTSD talked about here and I'm wondering what makes it more complex than PTSD. PTSD is pretty darn complex isn't it!?
- I slept well last night.Your storries are more painful than mine but my story is true.I woke up so anxious that I don't even want to be around me.I am accepting that maybe I don't know everything, even everything about what I've been through. It...
- this is not my thing nor is it something I handle well. When I do have anxiety first thing in the morning I get through a quick morning routine and drive to work (super far away!) the quiet drive helps. There are literally so many voices here....