MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- I said some things today in counseling that I’ve never said out loud. They were real before but they’re in my face now. I’m not sure I can look at my Dad. I’m not sure I can look at anyone. I thought I knew what had happened. I did. I...
- I feel like something a scrambled message is spinning around in my head and I'm not able to dicipher it. I actually know what it's saying but I can't really see how it applies to my life. I can but I can't. It's hard to explain. I guess in a...
- Are there really people who wake up and start their day without fear, anxiety and overthinking?
- I think if I could just cry for a few hours I’d feel better.
- Thanks for the encouraging comments and messages. I’m having a hard day emotionally and I just needed to put it out there. I’m sad. I’m angry. I’m really angry. I want to talk about it all and tell them all how wrong it was but I’ve...
- Tomorrow is my wedding anniversary. I left my husband in July. Feeling sad or something, I’m not really sure. That sounds silly. My mom said today “tomorrow is your anniversary in case you didn’t know.”Shes passive aggressive and hates...
- My heart is so heavy this morning. I was diagnosed with ptsd more than 1.5decades ago and only now am I swallowing that diagnosis. I had no idea....I really thought I should have been fine but it’s sinking in now that that was a lie and I so...
- I had a conversation with my soon to be ex, last week. This is a rarity. He’s been wanting me to make all the decisions and I haven’t wanted to. That’s cruel. He did all these wrong things to me and blamed me and then when I left made it clear...
- I almost post a lot.I type out what is on my mind and then I delete it. I want someone to chat with. I don’t want to fee the need to defend myself, but there will always be the “have you tried?” I know people are trying to be helpful but I am...
- I’ve been gone over two months and the waves of thoughts and emotions have been brutal. One thing that resonates and lingers and won’t leave me alone is this sense that even still I can’t see straight when it comes to him. Now it’s permeated...
- In virtually the same room someone talks to someone else as if you’re not able to hear, “why does she? I wish she’d? She didn’t...” and the answers are very reasonable “I thought...but you said....because....”Clearly we both failed at...
- I’m not sure what’s wrong. Is it possible to feel lonely....just alone in my feelings? I think I don’t like pretending I’m okay when I’m not. No, I know I don’t like that. That was my childhood. Despite what was going on under their...
- I start seeing a new counselor next week.life living with my parents has been intense. I made a lot of excuses for them. Ive been busy standing my ground, being the Mom I want to be despite what they think. I didn’t settle for compromising my...
- I’m feeling really thankful tonight that I don’t feel overburdened at bedtime. I have nothing to get off my chest. I’m still weighed with anxiety and sadness but I think some of that is healthy right now.I normalized a lot. Spilled my drink...
- I just wish I had friends