MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- I don’t want to do anything but just sit here. It’s been such a long week. I’m on track to be an assistant manager by August. And I’m excited. It’s not a ton of money but it’s good money and it’s good experience. The store owner said...
- I got screened at the local women’s center to receive free counseling. Unreported sexual assault within the last three years means all my visits with them are covered. That’s amazing. I have seen 7 counselors in the last two years. One went on...
- There’s so much that I won’t say on this because I don’t think anything is anonymous.but I hate PTSDI don’t understand itthe more I seem to be doing right the more symptoms I haveI feel disconnected from myself and from my kids. It’s not...
- I want real humans. No offense. I want friends or someone to see and high five and hug. I’m also sick of people. I want to reach out but people don’t reach back. It when they do it’s about them or to give hope they don’t know how to give...
- When it comes down to it, I don’t know what to say. Most of the time that explains my absence. I AM SO DEPRESSED.Todays thoughtsGood thing I don’t have any meds at home...Terrible mom. My kid is sleeping on the floor bc she wants to sleep with...
- As a Mom, my emotions are constantly all over the chart. Tantrum to sweetness in a matter of seconds.So proud and pulling my hair out in the same moment. Terrified.Joyful. And that’s just my kids.Work mode can be stressful. Working with people...
- I have caught myself in a trap lately, looking for my self worth and my value in others. How they see me so impacts how I see myself sometimes. I don’t know why I am suddenly so fragile but I am. I feel so disconnected from everyone and that...
- Feels like everything is moving too fastI can’t keep upcant think fast enough cant get things right dont have a moment of alone time except when I should be sleeping cant comfort toddlers who miss daddyI am not okay
- Everything is weighing heavily on me and I don’t feel like I have words to even explain. That’s hard. I called S yesterday in tears with no explaination, just asking her to pray with me. And M is wanting to spend time with me. I love and admire...
- i was skeptical when my counselor told me she was sure I was still having nightmares. She said that’s why I wake up anxious and in a panic. I just thought anxiety never ended. But I actually vaguely remembered last nights dream. It wasn’t...
- Im mourning the loss of my marriage, of my dream of a family unit and of my friend. But I see now whether intentional or out of ignorance, he was never a friend, just as I out of ignorance was never a friend to him. A true friend is firm with their...
- The first stage of self care for me is having a routine. We’ve been in the new place for two weeks now. I think the routine is settling in nicely. Laundry is done. The only items not folded and put away are the towels I just took out and I’m...
- There’s not a feelings face angry enough for me to choose for this post. I haven’t been on much because I’ve been trying very hard to foster some real life relationships with people who I can reach out and hug or sing and dance with. People...
- Work problems that feel like me problems aren’t really all mine. I’m definitely more sensitive but I’m not doing anything wrong. Someone else is. I tried addressing it today in the moment but I’m sick, exhausted, have been crying and my...
- i think this move is more traumatic for me than for the kids.We are on campus with a faith based group hat houses single moms who are processing things.Ex has been harassing me.Our tiny apartment is all set up. I have been trying to be self aware...