MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- TRIGGER WARNINGI am flustered and confused and I wish I could see my counselor twice a week.....Ive had a hard time focusing on everything. It’s hardest for me when I have a hard time focusing on things I read. Reading has always brought me joy....
- I haven't been on DS in almost a month. I'm exhausted.I'm not doing okay.I don't eat when they're at their Dad's, unless I go out with a friend or have something at church. Home, alone, I don't want to. But I did do some good things this weekendA...
- some of you wrote some really encouraging things on an earlier post of mine. Thank you, as always, for your authenticity and gentle explanations of a hard truth. I especially liked the metaphors. I can not in this moment find hope for myself to be...
- I like my new counselorDid you know the caterpillar faces a literally dark, lonely, painful and bloody life in the cocoon and that without struggling to squeeze through a tiny opening the butterfly’s wings wouldn’t be strong enough to fly?Being...
- I don’t know what to do. Nap time is over. I’ve never felt this way, it’s never bled into our time like this
- Their first full weekend at Daddys.I skyped with them while I was at church, between rehearsal and serving. My heart loved it but also it was just really hard. I've never been on the receiving end of their phone calls before. It was really sweet how...
- The problem with being a part of a community where people are open and raw and dealing with too much, some addicts, alcoholics and what not, is that eventually someone loses their life to this fight. That happened this weekend to someone in my...
- I can’t today. There’s not enough time to process. I can’t cope with anything today. I cleaned. I cooked. I did everything I usually do on my day off. The difference is it’s two days after I signed an agreement in mediation and I don’t...
- something I learned about myself today is that maybe I’m keeping walls up because I’m so afraid people get tired of the real mei feel very alone and depressed and I know everyone needs community but I choose terrible members of mine. Even if I...
- I got halfway there and was falling asleep in the car, while driving. So I turned around and went home. No friendsEaster today. I’m going to take a nap and pray for someone to talk to. An in person someone who’s hug won’t be virtual. I...
- I say “still” because I posted a journal for friends to see at like 4am. And it feels like a long day. My mistakes:No waterTwo cups of coffee Snacking rather than having mealsMy wins:I recognized the trigger, took myself away from the crowd,...
- I could post about things that have thrown me into a whirlwind of racing thoughts or anxiety I don’t understand but that’s just going to wait. I’m making memories with toddler. We went to a car show and my youngest (girl) enjoyed it more than...
- Im the boring parentIm the mean parentI say noI make them go to sleepI don’t have money for friends or family for support or fun or celebrations He had them the day my church did our Easter Egg hunt and picnic He is scheduled to have them Easter...
- There are so many synonyms and so many racing thoughts and dissociation is just confusing. I kinda feel exhausted from trying to understand it. I’m just working on mindfulness and trying to stay present and hoping somehow things will get better....
- So many emotions it’s abundantly clear that in divorcing my husband, his family has decided to divorce me as wellMy nephew turned 1. His mom messaged me about the party but was pretty clear that I wasn’t invited. I usually pick up kids at his...