MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- 5 months off, 3 months in treatment, 25 lbs gained, back to work, heavier than ever. I'm really struggling this morning. I wanted to restrict breakfast. I hate the meal plan I'm on. I'm nervous people will say something about my weight gain. It may...
- I just wrote this long post and deleted it because I don't think anyone will care, does care, wants to care or has time to care and I'd rather have in person support or like phone calls.....but no one answers. No one has time. That's what my...
- It's been a high stress week for me. ex has not responded to the child support officecourts are moving slower than everhad to pay $410 for one of his mistakestell my parents I may likely need help with rent daughter put a tiny jagged toy in her...
- Nothinn happened. It was a typical morning. Really it started last night. Anxiety. I NEEDED my meds. I wasn't myself. I feel more myself when I'm not momming. Kids come home from Dads and my anxiety comes with them. That makes me feel like a...
- I haven't posted in a while. I've been really depressed and just trying to stable myself enough to focus. Depression increases my anxiety when it's that bad. But this weekend my "keeping busy," as the doctor ordered, meant not stopping all weekend...
- My birthday is tomorrow. I'm excited and proud to be someone who does something fun for myself for my birthday. It's the one day a year I definitely deserve to do what I want. had a fun weekend with my kiddo bought myself some new clothestook a...
- I'm tired of feeling like this. Nothing helps. I get to a certain point and then depression turns to rage and anger and I can't handle it
- Group was hard today. I went down a hole while everyone was talking, started digging my nails into my own wrist.....my ability to focus was shot. We were talking about peoples relationships with their spouses which quite frankly sound abusive and...
- I have multiple anniversaries this week. it's weird that one even bothers me. I was safe at camp but walking on eggshells praying I wouldn't run into him and then we'd go home and all hell would break loose. One year my dad confiscated the phone...
- I am feeling very strange today....totally panicked a bit and had extreme anxiety for some pretty standard reasons but then came home and as tired as I am I feel excited, enthusiastic, elated but also lonely and sad. very strange. I have no reason...
- Every family has their issues right?Treatement, support groups, and marriage has me believing that every family includes violence and abuse. What is it like to not have ptsd? I'm sure you all wonder. What is it like to enjoy something for the sake...
- I have people on a list I could call and never before this weekend have I had guts to call but their reception of my needing help this time around was less than helpful. In fact, discouraging. I got really overwhelmed and made some bad decisions....
- Caught up with an old friend, someone who had a crush on me. I had no idea he remembered me or still thought of me often, or that he had a crush on me. He said it was the highlight of his day that I reached out. Neither of us are on Facebook often...
- I'm still very upset this morning. Ruminating memories and questions and thoughts. Nausea, anxiety, I don't want to do this anymore. But I'm following my meal plan and at php. This too shall pass?
- I definitely can't cope with today and I feel hopeless to ever be able to cope with trauma. Rewind or fast forward?