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I have been really triggered and anxious and experiencing a lot of dissociation lately. So I checked out on sunday and had a very quiet day. I needed this. But I’m also feeling kinda sad that no one really checked on me. I’m always at church. I kinda feel like everyone’s Sunday morning friend and the thing is I don’t even want to tell them I’m overwhelmed and anxious and have ptsd. But I’d like to go have some fun. I think my life lacks fun. It’s been hard to focus and I have two days, found out today, to study for my leadership exam. I knew it was coming and have studied some things but some info he gave us is brand new to me and there’s a lot. I feel like I have been trying to focus and get through my day with a dozen tiny monkeys crashing cymbal in my ear. Two days. And I was incredibly overwhelmed and depressed this weekend. I reached out to look up more support groups only to find out today that they were all canceled due to lack of interest. Conpartmentalizing. Focusing on the exam and the kids. Finally seeing my counselor again tomorrow. It’s been a really long two weeks. There’s a lot going on that I can’t share in a thread like this but it’s heavy. Thanks for being here.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
So I had bought a ticket back in May to a rock concert, and I wrote on my other thread that I still went. I want to volunteer for THAT, for some fun. It took half of the show to get me out of my dissociative state and stop being numb, but it happened. I had FUN. Take that, PTSD.
I know what you mean about Sunday friends. I grew up the son of a pastor, the grandson of a pastor, the nephew of a pastor, so I had a lot of Sunday friends. Meaning folks who related to me superficially because of the authority figures my relatives were, but didn't want to open up to me because of them. Church was really lonely to me because of that. It's not church's fault, it's just because church was my family's business, in a way.
That's why when I did answer my own call to ministry, it was to minister in hospital chaplaincy instead. Having those heart to heart talks about faith and God one on one in patients' hospital rooms away from church was a real blessing for me.
Hope your counseling goes well tomorrow. Let us know, ok? Yes, we're here.
Eventually I let go of a couple "friendships" because of it. I put that in quotes because while I know that I was a friend to them, I'm less sure that they were friends to me.
Sadly, it seems too common that for those of us that grew up abused, that our adult friendships aren't always what they could have been.
Anyway, best of luck with your leadership exam.
I'm sorry that you're struggling.....xo