I have been really triggered and anxious and experiencing a lot of dissociation lately. So I checked out on sunday and had a very quiet day. I needed this. But I’m also feeling kinda sad that no one really checked on me. I’m always at church. I kinda feel like everyone’s Sunday morning friend and the thing is I don’t even want to tell them I’m overwhelmed and anxious and have ptsd. But I’d like to go have some fun. I think my life lacks fun. It’s been hard to focus and I have two days, found out today, to study for my leadership exam. I knew it was coming and have studied some things but some info he gave us is brand new to me and there’s a lot. I feel like I have been trying to focus and get through my day with a dozen tiny monkeys crashing cymbal in my ear. Two days. And I was incredibly overwhelmed and depressed this weekend. I reached out to look up more support groups only to find out today that they were all canceled due to lack of interest. Conpartmentalizing. Focusing on the exam and the kids. Finally seeing my counselor again tomorrow. It’s been a really long two weeks. There’s a lot going on that I can’t share in a thread like this but it’s heavy. Thanks for being here.
Is it to much to ask a spouse to respond to a text?He almost never responds unless he needs something.He never answers his phone while at work.Am I crazy to expect him to communicate with me on things that don't directly involve him?
My mentally ill parents were my primary abusers since childhood as a missionary kid overseas in a war zone. As an adult, after a violent physical attack during a visit to them for Christmas 1992, I estranged myself from them for 8 years. Then when my mother got breast cancer in 2004, I moved back near them until 2007 for three years to get her through chemotherapy and radiation. After my...