MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- I think I do this to myself. I’m soooo tired. I’m sick. Should have been resting but instead of going back to sleep when I wake up anxious at 2 or 3am I jump into problem solving or journaling mode. I could turn in some music and do some deep...
- Do you think we can focus too much on things that are going on? Is it less important to solve the problem and more important to get through the day? I feel guilty for wanting to read a book for fun. I’m not good at hobbies. I’m good at...
- My chest got tight. My finger swiped up to deny the memory. My mind got blurry. I still feel anxious but I took a deep breath. An old counselor told me if I catch myself frozen, triggered, flooding like that, taking a deep breath will interupt the...
- I am pushing away lies not letting them into my head but then I question myself, what if they’re not lies at all? And suddenly I feel like the crazy person he says I am. This is hard.
- No reason to include small town in that title. I just like the movie Sleepless in Seattle. I have been trying to have fences instead of walls. I need really really thick sturdy tall fences with my parents but fences still. Or maybe they’re walls....
- its been a hard weekim sure I have made mistakesive been isolating more and more for months nowim so tireddepressedliterally sick - I hardly have a voice I’m confused wishing something awful would happen to mei do not want to do this anymore I...
- I’m overwhelmed and relieved.I was not happy with the trajectory of this divorce. It felt like my lawyer told me I needed to admit that I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. I have worded some things differently and told her we need to...
- Kids are sleeping. I thought let’s rest. I needed to write some things out to go over with a lawyer tomorrow. I’m not sure my lawyer is giving trustworthy advice but I know a good man who knows a lawyer he’d trust. This man is a friend of...
- i had a terrible dream. I’ve had worse dreams. He was here but he didn’t hurt me. He held my paycheck hostage and I needed to come get it. I chose to, left my kids in daycare and couldn’t get there in time before they closed. Soon to be ex...
- Im just as confusing as I am confused. So uncomfortable for unknown reasons yesterday I still sat with my family and relied on dumb humor to distract me. I hated myself with every comment. I’m not happy. This is not ok. Why am I pretending?headed...
- My daughter was off routine and Dad didn’t take them to see Nama today. She’ll be 2 next month. She was sad when I picked her up and cried for her Nana. It hurt my heart because I just wanted hugs and fun but I cuddled my sad sweetie as she...
- I was not okay today. I couldn’t calm my breathing. I reached out to real life people from my reach out and touch them support groups and said I need help. I say that but it’s big. I always only ever text U. I texted her bc she doesn’t answer...
- Yesterday’s appointment with my counselor wasbterrifying. I’m scared for our next visit. She screened me for DID. She asked when the first time I noticed my sense of reality didn’t match up with others....it wasn’t until last year really. I...
- I saw my counselor again this morning and for the second week in a row, it hit me just how much I’ve been in denial for so long. It’s not been a secret to me that my diagnosis has seemed foreign. I can’t grasp the fact that I of all people...
- I’m not sure what I’m searching for but Im searching for something.Have you ever felt that way? Like you think maybe you’re just missing something - a puzzle piece that will make it all okay? I’m stuck on this feeling like my brain is...