MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- I am tired of not having anyone to talk to. I took one day to shut the world out and I feel like I need at least one more. But I don’t have that. I feel angry and sad and invisible. I would also just really like a real in person hug from a friend....
- I have had enough quiet, somehow, to recognize why I think people younger than me are much smarter than me. I have ptsd yes. Sometimes big decisions are terrifying. I feel triggered when I feel trapped. And I freeze. Trying to figure out what’s...
- I am struggling this morning because it's my day off and for what feels like the ten millionth week in a row, my day off is packed full of stuff and responsibilities and I want to stay home and clean, and write, and sleep. Because I need rest.I am...
- I have been attending my support group because the alternative is sitting in the house alone. But it’s been a year and a half since I started going and I’ve yet to find the right people there.The right people listen.They don’t say things like,...
- I can not do this
- Last year I was sad that husband didn’t call or text at all. I’d moved out with the possibility of returning should he get help. He didn’t once ask me to come home.This year I think it’s fears and emotions flooding from all the birthdays I...
- My soon to be ex husband was so in my head that a year after leaving him I still google facts I should be confident of - like the fact that a scholar I respect greatly because of one of his last works is dead, or that raisins are made from grapes. I...
- Have you ever had such a good day that you didn’t know how to sit with yourself at the end of it. I have toddlers. It was not void of meltdowns, boo boos, messes or any other challenges. But there were many more highs than lows and I feel safe....
- a group I’m in meets weekly. Tonight we started a new lesson, on boundaries. It was hard to talk about. I did little talking. I have grown comfortable setting my own boundaries but even this week I realized I’m not as assertive as I would like...
- I slept about thirty more minutes and was so anxious in my dreams that I was biting my nails. It was so nice to wake up to healthy nails.
- I get that feelings are not truths, but I’m having trouble believing people when they say things that they might even believe are true. I’m glad you’re my friendI’m glad you’re hereYou are loved I’m excited to see you. I’m not...
- there are no solutions there is no such thing as being heardi don’t know how any of y’all have done what you’ve doneI don’t know what else I can do. I feel done.
- Growing up, this was a Holiday spent outside of the house with friends and people who were safe. Although their secret keeping made them unsafe, that’s not a truth I understood back then. They were safe. They even intervened when the unsafe human...
- I am overwhelmed. I can’t find another ice babysitter....sometime who will watch kiddos when they’re too sick for daycare. My current only one is moving and/or getting a joblittlest got cleared of walking pneumonia yesterday at 8am. By 4pm she...
- this is me pulling my hair out screaming “I’m done!”