MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- what are yours and how much time to you dedicate to them? Also if you feel comfortable sharing, do you work, have kids or are you retired?
- How? Has anyone had success changing your thoughts? I’m failing and it scares me how ugly I’m thinking....
- Im feeling really anxious tonight and Im not sure why. My Sunday School class had our Christmas party today after church. It was really fun. We had a tough discussion in class though, about family. Lots of families in the Bible are dysfunctional at...
- last nights lesson at group was AdmitI have trouble finding people I trust. In my experience people aren’t who they say they are. I give chances and I don’t see the obvious flags. I need to figure this out. I can’t deal with my head. I’ve...
- what happens on a hotline when you tell someone you’re having suicidal thoughts?
- i hate this cliche but it’s more than just a river in Egypt.New counselor. 2nd appointment. Last week she screened me for PTSD. Today first thing we went over the results. It surprised me that she said I have it....I was diagnosed 15 years ago. If...
- Thankful or not, the truth remains. I am a hamster running on a wheel and I don’t know how to get off. I keep getting into situations where I think I understand what’s being said and sometime later I find out that I really don’t. I think...
- wearydiscardeddeceiveddeceitfulsadscaredconfusedindecisivethankful - for my kids, for the good moments, for the memories I do have, for my job, for my health - even though it could be better, for the friends I do have, for a place to put all the...
- Feeling ill equipped and unprepared for this season. On top of everything, my moms health is as bad as we thought. Maybe worse. She’s had a heart attack, refused to be admitted and has a stress test later this week. Sometimes I think she wants to...
- Today had challenges but it was a good day. I had little privacy but it was a good day. I met with a new advocate who said she doesn’t want to give me false hope but will see what she can do. Never reporting anything is a problem. The problem...
- I’m really depressed today and surely believing lies. We are never trapped or stuck, unless we listen to ourselves and become the cause of our greatest fears. I feel like that’s what I’m doing and I don’t know how to get off the ride....
- i know comparing ourselves to others is not healthy or fair for anyone....I don’t usually use this word....BUTI am having trouble understanding or accepting my diagnosis. Nevermind that I got it over a dozen years ago. At that point I was dealing...
- I have avoided contacting them because it doesn’t seem right. That’s for victims of sexual assault. They use the R word and that’s not what I would call any of the things I’ve been through that are affecting me now. Even when I was raped, I...
- there are no wordsimagine me screamingmaybe if you all imagine st the same time it will feel like I’ve actually screamed enough to feel betterthere is no screaming in real life. I won’t terrify the kids. But I’m furious and probably going to...
- I feel like I’ve just run a marathon without training.....never have I ever had to bathe my oldest at 2am wondering if I’d be on my way to the ER. Her temp was above 104 a few times. Then an allergic reaction to meds and so much benedryl, all...