I rarely post when I'm doing okay, because I convince myself that I will jinx things. But I'm being brave, because I'm realy okay. I have some peace.

I live in Florida. I've been praying that this storm turns and goes back out into the sea. We may still get a good portion of it but it's looking significantly better than previous predictions. I am so impressed and I see growth in me, that I didn't let the media hype control me this last week. it's been a whirlwind. Dorian is going to kill and destroy your land. Nope, wait, you're okay. Nope, definitely evacuate. Put up your shutters. Take down your shutters. He's coming west. Nope, northeast. West again. He's barreling in like a bowling ball headed for a strike. Oops, wrong again, more like a kid to bat hitting the t rather than the ball. We don't know what he's doing really until he actually does it but I have faith that we will be okay. It's my first storm as a single mom that I'm not living with family through - and I can't afford to evacuate. I could take us west to a friends house, but it doesn't look like we'll get much. If my daughters surgery is canceled I will head west but if it's not, we will stay here because that's what's best for her. I'm pretty sure surgery will be canceled. We have some bags packed for each of us and will roll out as soon as I hear from the docs office - just in case. We are not in a flood zone but we are under a lot of trees. And west is less likely to lose power so we'd all be more comfortable. 

My soon to be ex has my address. He took our little to her pre-op appointment becuase it was rescheduled due to the storm and I couldn't make it. It was a Saturday and I was scheduled to work. They give you paperwork that shows kids address on it. He texted me "What's your address?" followed by a bunch of GIFs that basically say I've got you now, one is really vulgar. Those were not sent throguh the court appointed app, clearly. So I screenshotted the worst of them and said if this continues I will be deleting messenger and we will both need to create Skype accounts so the kids can talk. So he knows my address. I actually live on campus at a faith based program that enrolled me in a savings program for single moms. We have our own space and participate in group events here. There are seven houses, a giant building of apartments, a gym, an office building and more here on campus. And all the mail goes to the front office. He has no idea where I live. Plus everyone here knows who's supposed to be on campus. Any strangers get told to leave, reported to staff or approached by a police officer who frequents here. We are pretty safe. I think more than anything he's wanting to be intimidating. We move in a few months and I'll talk to the doctors office about not releasing my address to him. Probably just update it to be my parents address so I'd still get correspondance from them but my address would not be correct.