MarahIdellCatLuvr
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- This is from Fargo but nothing greusome here.....I have journaled words very similar very recently. I feel this. You know, before you got here,I was thinking, see Ennis, my step-father,he wrote these space books...And I read one of 'em.The Planet...
- I have been gaslit. I have complex ptsd and I have trouble understanding that that means I have symptoms, not that I am crazy. sometimes I feel crazy - when I'm overwhelmed, or tired, full of fear that someone will tell me I'm crazy and that that...
- It's been an extra long weekend. My three year old had strep. She's much better and returning to school tomorrow but I'm out 10hrs of work. And I lost it tonight, walked into another room to hit myself with something. I've been white knuckling for...
- It looms over me daily but when the weekends arrive it takes over. I have my munchkin this weekend and it's still all consuming. I'm taking deep brea s, remaining calm, practicing self care but feeling terrible. I purged today too and I'm very upset...
- I think anxiety has fed my depression all week and I'm feeling terrible, also really tired and not wanting to go to sleep this early because then I'll be awake so early. Just saying hi.....no friends to talk to......how is everyone else?
- Symptoms have been high. That's understandable. I've been trying to be kind to myself because of it. I have not pill-shamed myself for needing things to prevent panic attacks or outbursts. I've sipped my favorite teas and done some really great...
- It's overwhelming! Life is overwhelming. I am so stressed I've cried and felt sick to my stomach all week. But I've still eaten. I've had a lot of peppermint tea too. I'm doing self care and being kind to myself bt I'm still stressed and for me,...
- I'm frustred with my meal plan and have been for a while. If the title doesn't give it away I'm a recovering bulimic. So I have been cutting carbs because I can't afford to gain weight. Literally, I can't buy new clothes again. I just want my...
- My brain is really confused right now. Yesterday felt like a wave crashing in slow motion. Sooo much anxiety. And I couldn’t follow conversation in group, so I spoke up and said so. I seem fine when I’m not fine and it’s been hard to follow...
- This week at therapy....intensive outpatient treatment.....I've had a really hard time focus.I'm adjusting to lower level of care and being back at work. My mom said via facetime to my three year old last night "WOW, how much did you eat? Look at...
- I had a meltdown yesterday at the treatment center. I couldn't handle the group room anymore. Too much going on so I talked with my therapist. Basically I'm exhausted. Going back to work while still in treatment is a lot. Physically and emotionally...
- I'm in a lot of physical pain most days but definitely worse these last few days. Something is wrong with my feet. Maybe plantar faciaitis or something idk....but my upper back hurts too. It started flaring up in PT one day after a work accident had...
- quarantine life....I suck at it. I don't even have friends who will answer their phone because the good ones are all married with 2-5 kids. They don't have time for friends. I've been losing my cool all day. Dissociating. Not focusing. Just really...
- Working so hard just to get through each day, just to focus, just to live. Is this as good as it gets? Managing panic like it's an unruly haircut? Constantly grounding, reframing, repeating mantras and meditating? This is exhausting. I want a break....
- My first week back at work:It was loud, especially yesterday.Someone told me I've put on some pounds and look good. I thanked him, smiled and walked away telling myself "I'd rather be known for my kindness than my body type." No restricting. no...