AnxietyFreak40
Status: People in toxic relationships don’t love each other. They love the idea of each other. ~Mark Manson
Mood:
Ok
Offline
-
It has been 182 days since my last smokeI keep wanting to journal ...and kind of writing it in my head…but I find myself just staring at the ceiling and then never doing it. It’s an odd...
-
I finally got some peace last night and today it has continued. I didn't change anything. I didn't do anything differently. I have no idea what finally tipped the scales. I'll take it...
-
I feel stronger today. It probably won't last very long but for now I'm gonna take it. I had a lot of panic and anxiety over the weekend....including health anxiety. My stomach started to...
-
I managed to keep the panic at bay for most of last night and today. It is coming up again though. I can feel the tears behind my eyes but I am afraid to let them out for fear I won't be able to...
-
I have been having the most awful feelings of dread. It is like there is an elephant sitting on my chest and I cannot breathe. This is my life now. I just have to find a way to get used to it. I...
-
How do I keep going? Everything is such a struggle and all I want to do is cry and curl up in a corner. I have no one and I feel like I am going to throw up all day long. There is no work...
-
I haven't been able to journal...not sure why. I'm just all over the place bouncing between crying and panic and anxiety. Every little struggle I face starts it all over again and I am filled...
-
I feel like now that I am out of the house the real work is going to begin. I have so much anger towards him. Every time I struggle for money or think of how my dog does not have any grass or yard...
-
I made it through the move. I am so sore I can barely move and I haven't unpacked anything but at least I am all in. He decided not to come home on Friday night so I had to ask my friend Jeanette...
-
I feel lost and lonely today and very restless. I keep doing deep breathing trying to maintain some sort of calm. I feel like curling into a ball and crying but I can tell that I am back to the...
-
It's getting closer now and with every step I take I feel like I am going to be sick. I went and got the cashiers check for the move in deposit and then went online to rent a truck. I have at...
-
I have often said that patience is so NOT one of my virtues. I hate waiting. I just want the move to be over with. I woke up in a lot of pain. Two hours at the dentist yesterday. They have...
-
I went and put my deposit down on my apartment today. I should feel relieved but all I feel is sadness, anger, bitterness and loneliness.Pretty soon I can crawl into my new hole and hide.I hate...
-
Things were calm the rest of the weekend. He even made my favorite meal Saturday night. So Weird. Went back to being civil and even helped me with some boxes. I'm sure it won't last..I just...
-
I don't really feel like writing right now, but I feel the need to get this down ...before I forget how horrible it's been.So yesterday I got home from work and when he got home I just went to my...
dd