Monday 20170626

I feel stronger today.  It probably won't last very  long but for now I'm gonna take it. 

I had a lot of panic and anxiety over the weekend....including health anxiety.  My stomach started to bother me on Sunday morning and I was to the point that I couldn't tell if I was actually getting sick or just anxiety on top of something I ate bothering me. 

I reached out to a couple of friends and when my stomach settled enough I went out anyway and did the shopping I needed to do.

Saturday I went and looked at used appliances and found a washer/dryer. The place, I already knew from the address, was super ghetto and I passed it three times trying to find it and was about to give up when I found it.  I had a moment where I thought it was not a good idea without company...but then I sucked it up and went in anyway.  The lady was super nice and helpful and I was glad that I had not left.   I will have to dip into my nest egg to pay for it but like my mom said,  I can always sell them again later. 

This morning my phone started going off before the alarm....It was my young friend..telling me he was at the hospital and that he had been taken by ambulance.  He said he was released but had no way to get home.  He said he called lyft but they were 30 minutes out. I told him I was on my way and just cancel the lyft...  He said he didn't want to bother me because he knew I had work.  I told him he was an idiot and I was on my way.  I went over to the hospital and he was out front, standing in the dark, with his paperwork in his arms.  He said he'd had horrible stomach pain and that they ran tests and sent him home with no diagnosis but awaiting test results.  Is this really what hospitals do?  If he hadn't had paperwork in his arms I would have doubted he'd even been in there.  Such a strange story.  Happy Monday