Monday 20170605

Things were calm the rest of the weekend.  He even made my favorite meal Saturday night.  So Weird.  Went back to being civil and even helped me with some boxes.  I'm sure it won't last..I just have to make it a few more days.  I have zero indecision left and now I am just sorry that I did not leave years ago.  Wasted sooooo much time.

During the argument Friday night he made sure to tell me that his dad said he could do whatever he wanted with the house.  That means he could have moved out and let me stay there so the animals did not have to be shaken up and Remi could continue to have a yard.  I will never forgive him for that part.  I don't care about me.  I'll sleep in my fucking car if I  have to.  My pets are the closest thing to kids I will ever have.  They are the only real love I have received for years.  Their comfort is all I care about at this point.  I hate him for that.

I will go down today and put the deposit on my unit and see if I can get some male help to move furniture.  I don't want him helping me.  This is one of those times where I am super angry to be a girl and not be able to move heavy things myself.  6 days...I can do this.