AnxietyFreak40
Status: People in toxic relationships don’t love each other. They love the idea of each other. ~Mark Manson
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Has it really been since June that I wrote a journal? Time seems to go by faster and faster but nothing is becoming clear. The tears may have stopped but I am just as lost in life as I was before...
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The only way I know to get rid of things is to write them down sometimes...even if it makes no sense.Dear Steven, It has now been two years that we have been apart. I know we were toxic. I know...
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November was really the last time I wrote in this Journal??? What the hell is the matter with me? Does that mean I have been better? Yes, I guess overall I have been better ...or at least kept...
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It's amazing how we can hold on to the tiniest ..dumbest things and turn that mole hill into a great mountain....I have a weird taste in my mouth...everything I have been eating and drinking today...
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RamblingSo I guess the urge to journal has a lot to do with actually needing to vent out the anxiety. I wish I had the discipline to journal regardless…clearly the lazy in me comes out. I...
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Some things never change…Although I have been doing better than usual for this time of year...today I am having a little bit of health anxiety. My boss called in sick today. Yesterday he kept...
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What is it that makes one personality always live in fear and other people just enjoy life and go with the flow. Is it purely genetic? Is it environmental? Something from childhood? Why is it...
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I’ve been pretty unhappy in the apartment I moved into when Steve and I split. I was grateful to have it but it was very expensive. I had not lived in a large complex before and the dog and I...
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I am unable to focus. Scattered, my mind keeps drifting from one thing to another. I close my eyes and try to figure out what it is that I am supposed to do. The answer never comes. I belong...
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I feel very contemplative this morning and hoping it helps me to journal some things out. I keep wanting to get back to regular journals but the words just won’t flow. The summer is drawing to a...
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It’s been a really long time since I journaled again. Things with the new boyfriend had been going very well…at least well enough that I have been busy with him every weekend so not a lot of...
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It’s a Wednesday. I’ve been having weird anxiety symptoms on and off for days now. Monday I was so shaky I thought I was going to pass out in the Wendy’s drive through. Tuesday, I was...
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It’s been quite a while since I have been back here…hard to believe I haven’t written a journal in months. It’s been a year now since Steve and I split..hard to even put into words all the...
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I wish that I could get back to writing in my journal on a regular basis. I am not sure what is holding me back. Today is awful. I have the worst sinus headache and everyone here at work is...
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I belong nowhere. No matter how much I try and change things I am just a waste of energy on this planet. I will always be the broken girl...there is no making it better. The glass is not only...
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