AnxietyFreak40
Status: People in toxic relationships don’t love each other. They love the idea of each other. ~Mark Manson
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Woke up feeling like crap. Really bad sinus headache. I am getting allergy alert emails in January...very weird weather here. Shortly after I felt a little queasy..but with the extent of the...
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It's been a long time since I wrote in my journal again. I am just not very consistent. So far the anxiety this winter has been pretty mild overall with only a couple of bad days here and there. ...
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I have not been on here I realized since the last really bad day that I had. It is not normal for me to have one this bad while I am at work. I wish I could understand what causes them. My...
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It's been a really bad anxiety morning. I have no idea why. we actually had a nice evening last night. I got all my homework done and picked up his meds and went to the grocery and had dinner...
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how did I end up a year later right back to where I was? All I do is repeat the same mistakes over and over again. So tired. I feel stuck here. The harder I try and push to find a job or a...
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I know things tend to run in cycles but I am tired of this particular intersection. I feel like crap. whether it is the colder weather or the getting dark earlier I have been on the edge of...
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darkness. sadness. always alone. no matter what we do in this life in the end we are always alone. I go through my days with a mindless numbness. What is the purpose in this life? you work...
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Why am i here? How did I get to be old? I just feel like crying today. My new boss started and has been busy integrating into the business so he has left me to do my own thing. Good and bad I...
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I just finished watching the Notebook for like the third time in 24 hours(it has been playing on showtime). Why do I torture myself this way? It is all Hollywood. People don't really love each...
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I feel like anxiety is coming on. I am restless and down on myself today for sure. I was sitting here thinking i needed to tackle some of my homework and settled on clearing out some junk email...
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My last entry was July 24th? REALLY??? I suck. It is no wonder I never get anywhere in life. I never follow through with anything. If I cannot even be disciplined enough to write in my own...
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Well the heart monitoring period has ended. Basically the continued problems they do not feel is dangerous...mostly annoying. I am to try and end my caffeine and nicotene addictions and change...
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Today is the first day of my 5 day vacation. I had all these things in mind that I wanted to do. Finish painting the kitchen, pick and preserve the peaches that are overloading the tree in the...
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why do I even let myself get sucked into thinking im going to have a good day? Any day that starts out well between us is only going to end up with him drinking. Same old pattern. I have had...
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Two journals in one week? Dare I say I am getting back on track? lol probably not but it sounded good. Been feeling bad about not being here to give back all the support I have received over...
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