AnxietyFreak40
Status: People in toxic relationships don’t love each other. They love the idea of each other. ~Mark Manson
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Things have been very low for me and I have not been back here in a very long time. Depression has been high..mostly hanging around my apartment not caring if anything got done..just doing the...
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The surgery is over. I survived. In my head I never envisioned this. I thought I would not wake up from this and be released from the daily grind. As my friend said to me....Sorry girl..you...
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Two days before the surgery now. I was supposed to go watch a movie with a friend last night but his work schedule is brutal and by the time he was home and settled I was ready for bed. People...
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It's been a rough weekend. My ex and I got into it on the phone yesterday to the point where I told him I did not want to see him again and would make other arrangements for the surgery...of course...
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Seriously I always have to make things more complicated. As if there wasn't already enough going on. I kept seeing the new guy and on saturday I let him spend the night...of course who shows up...
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I was having an ok day..or so I thought. Went to my counseling appt after work. Remi and I went and picked up a couple of movies...sat down to eat dinner and watch a movie. Anxiety started...of...
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There is no joy in anything anymore. Not even the horses. I went riding last night...it should have been relaxing and instead I kept getting texts from my ex so even that was stressful. He...
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Wow, time seems to be flying by..I can't believe it has been a week since I wrote in my journal. Lots of anxiety over the weekend. I was feeling really sick yesterday morning but once I got to...
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LOL...OK...so I am really sucking at keeping up on the journaling...LOL I went to see the specialist yesterday for my heart arrhythmia(TG for spellcheck!). It seems as though this catheter...
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Well...at least it is Wednesday. I am so very tired today. My heart was racing while I slept and it kept waking me up. I have not heard from the specialist so I guess I need to make it a point...
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Ok..It's Official. I suck at keeping up with my journal lately. I have no excuse other than laziness. I have been tired and not getting moving early enough to journal before I go to work. ...
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Well...at least it is Wednesday. I am so very tired today. My heart was racing while I slept and it kept waking me up. I have not heard from the specialist so I guess I need to make it a point...
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Well...at least it is Wednesday. I am so very tired today. My heart was racing while I slept and it kept waking me up. I have not heard from the specialist so I guess I need to make it a point...
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Back to work after the long weekend. I am really starting to like my apartment a lot. I have made it very cozy for me and the animals. Things are just as confusing as ever. I know he has been...
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I had such a nice Sunday. A friend from work whose dad had knee surgery and can't ride invited me to help her exercise their horses on Sunday morning. It was really nice out and he has great...
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