wednesday 20170607

I have often said that patience is so NOT one of my virtues.  I hate waiting.  I just want the move to be over with. 

I woke up in a lot of pain.  Two hours at the dentist yesterday.  They have to re-do the crown I got a few months ago.  fml.  They were already running behind when I got there and then could not get a temp crown to stay on without breaking.  It's the very last tooth so hard for them to work on.  I am sore from being tensed in the chair and my jaw is all sore.  I had intended to be home early and get a little more packing done...by the time I got home I had no such ambition.

I have been asking around for someone to help me move.  I think maybe a couple of the maintenance guys at my company are going to help me.  One of the guys is on call so there's a chance he could get called off but he said he would also bring his sons to help.  I am still thinking about taking Friday off to move boxes on my own.

I'm not really processing any feelings right now.  I just feel numb.  I think I am afraid that the fear will take over..not sure.  This is how I get through things though...the cold calculating personality takes over and starts breaking things down in pieces..it's what she does.  Had all the utilities and required rental insurance setup in an hour yesterday while still working on work requests.  The problem with that is now everything is mostly done and it's back to waiting.  I hate waiting.