AnxietyFreak40
Status: People in toxic relationships don’t love each other. They love the idea of each other. ~Mark Manson
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I have been living this life of unhappiness for so many years. I just don't give a fuck anymore and now I am doing what I want to do and having fun. I have been spending a lot of time with my new...
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It was an ugly horrible weekend. I spent most of yesterday crying..I guess now that I got the faucet turned back on I cannot turn it off. I've been looking for places with no luck. Friday...
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I am so exhausted. I am barely making it awake til 9pm this week. I know it is also depression. The longer I am asleep the less I have to deal with him. I woke up to a dark quiet house. ...
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Last night was at least a little quieter. The anger is not working so yesterday he was using the sad defeated attitude. We barely spoke most of the night and I think I fell asleep around nine.I...
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Psychological warfare has begun. We go back and forth from him being nice to pissy in about three seconds. Last night all he kept saying was if I leave then I am not to call him when I have a panic...
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Why does this life have to be so hard???Yesterday, I went to have coffee with my new friend in the morning. Steve had to work. I got in a car accident on the way back. I'm fine, but my...
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I want to journal..I have so much going on. I just am not sure I can put this in to words without being all disjointed. My brain is all over the place. Yesterday, the whole jenga tower came...
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It started last night...This year was the first year our oldest daughter needed to file a tax return. He told her to wait to do it. My mom buys the software so she usually does them for us. I...
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racing heart, broken brain, not able to concentrate on anything. Feel like I am going to throw up. so tired of this life..
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It's been 105 days since I had a smoke.There is a war going on inside me. I have pushed this aside until school was over but there is only two weeks left of school and the war has begun. It is a...
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It has now been 101 days since I quit smoking.Today is class day. There is only like 3 weeks left of class. As I get closer to the end, I am noticing that I am starting to worry about what I will...
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Got back from Oregon yesterday. I'm home today and should be working on my project but have not been able to bring myself to do it yet and the day is half over already. On the ride home yesterday...
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My mood has been on a very slow downward spiral all day. I have no idea why. it started out ok...I was pretty relaxed even though I had to go in early to move some equipment around. I got...
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I have issues... I just need to figure out how to handle them. It's been 92 days since I had a smoke.Yesterday I had SOOOOO much coffee...I have no idea how many cups, I lost track. By the time I...
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It has been 91 days since my last smoke. My allergies are horrible. Bad headaches and nausea every day. Luckily it has not caused any anxiety. Still feel like crap though. It has been very...
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