went for a walk

same day as last journal. I was sitting at home after my morning at work...my mind and courage affecting my plan.

I was planning on taking a long walk - yet my fogginess and reluctance made me think I didn't want to go. Well

I decided, though I may not feel proud, or even low feeling, to push myself to go out there and took a long walk...

on the way back I stopped and got myself some groceries...so it was a big loop around the neighborhood for the walk.

While I walked, I started to make a plan for tomorrow, Saturday, the first day of my weekend after work in the morning. I usually

just want to bury my head at home and stuff my face full of food and drink. I thought if I really want to feel, well, kind of special and like I am having a good weekend..why don't I take myself to the local cafe and buy a capuccino and get a croissant...maybe bring a book and just sit there for a bit... I think I might do this...

I have a lunchtime meditation in about an hour. I'll go to that too. I guess I feel fallible, flawed and I'll just keep on, keepin' on.

Happy Weekend!!

Mark