malibumark

I woke up this morning with echoes of things that tried to make me feel down but I am determined to not believe it. There are so many things that are positive in my life. I am going to focus on that.

it's the end of the day. I'm lying in bed and watching Masterpiece Theater.I am starting to relax and get a little bit lonely and my mind is going towards the idea ofcouplehood.It's maybe much easier...

i am realizing that so often I find myself trying to live by a measure in my lifeand am not so dynamic -I thought about it this morning while getting a coffee the wedding was nice. it's my birthday...

Just reaching out as I pass the time until I need to do an errand for my little sisterwho is getting married today. She and her husband married in a very small and privateceremony at the start of...

I went to sleep last night - pulling everything apart mentally...it is an unavoidable thing for myself at timesand I woke this morning - feeling very fragile and unstable -but I am determined to keep...

yeah i'm treatin, treatin, treatin,myself well, well, well,I'm treatin' wellI'm treatin' wellrock onrockin duderock on lollolbedtime! :)

After I wrote the last journal post, I went on with the morning of takingcare of little chores, playing with Blue and I thought about my friend who I just saw and thoughttoo about future changes I...

hi guys, i went out with a friend yesterday. we went to the Getty Center Museumand it was fun.I started to realize how different we all are and yet we still cherish each other.We may have ideals, but...

I write because I get confused and lost a lot - and so by writing I hope to createa clarity and figure it out and as my therapist said we are all trying to understand our lifeexperiences.Here's one...

I hope you guys can be gentle with yourself as well.This is what I thought about this morning that really helped. I was sitting here - shaking in my boots about what to do with my day - I can get...

right now I need to pray. I seem to feel the call to Buddhistprayer more than Christian right now.I need to console myself and yet also with Buddhism theyespouse that each of us is responsible as we...

Got the procedure done!! It was over before I realized it. Great drugs! It was a nice sleep and only three small polyps found which were removed. The Doctor said they are probably nothing and will...

I have often felt trapped within the moment - trapped by my feelings of inadequacy and ability or even sense of how to support myself with a kind of self validation..but now I kind of realize that I...

I think I get worried when things are defined - and also I get worriedwhen things aren't so defined -I have felt very nebulous all morning - but got some things done -and finally I just submitted to...