malibumark

well I suppose it's because I have felt so out of control in life that I have gone frombeing very social at one time, to being really determined to be able to be self sufficient.There's a pride that...

I went to bed last night with the idea of adding some exercise to my routine.Breakfast, lunch, dinner, exercise, chores and so on. I'll go to the park in a littlewhile and walk laps.I started to...

I am so understanding that everyone's trying to make sense of life each day....I started writing this yesterdayand this morning I woke up with the hope I could finish it.I am reminded of the last...

It's really clear to me what a lot of my depressiveness is about.I don't like being alone much of the time - or at least sometimes.My paranoid thoughts can also inspire me to make conclusionsthat...

I was with my family today and I kind of got knocked off balance while visiting with everyone on zoomand then in person too. I kind of have been going too much with my own design of life this morning...

woke up half way this morning at around 5am..Blue the cat wanted tobe fed and so I got up...eventually...and fed him...in and out of sleep for a little while and then flipped on Channel 2..where Joel...

I helped my Pop with a delivery he needed this morning. I got home,ate lunch and then remembered I needed to get meds from the Pharmacyand pick up food for Blue. I did both and then came home.I...

Had a really slow waking up with the sun kind of morning..felt nearly drunk on the comfort and solitude...then my Dad called to ask me to deliver good for his business this morningwhereas he...

I woke up slowly this morning, it's great waking up to sunshine!I am waking later and later - back to a regular hoooman schedule (butthat will only be for a few more days!) :)Got up - showered, fed...

tired, lonely, depressed...what you gonna do?I decided to give myself goals and fulfill them - but whatI also realized is the fact that everyone has to do this.and so instead of getting lost in a tv...

I woke up from a nap to find Blue relaxing next to me. :)

I woke up this morning feeling great. Showered, dressedand went to Starbucks. Chatted with a barista and then came home.Texted back and forth with friends. Texts can be so intimate and yetwhen...

I was alone for most of the day - trying to keep busy and learn along the way...Got in touch with some of the truths about myself to hold onto as a way to find strength with going on with my...

I've come across this hen wandering around the neighborhood many times.She's super confident and sometimes walks in the street and stops traffic but acts as though she hasn't noticed.It's like she...

there's such an honesty I am tempted to writethat I fear it will destroy me. I don't know why life seems toalways edit me out from taking action...I was visiting with my parents this morning,...