the world is vast

I woke up bright and early this morning...and delivered goods for my parents'.

Came home at 630am and set down to feed and play with Blue.
Took a shower and dressed and then went out for coffee.

Had some cheerios too.

Washed up and here I am. I find myself thinking about the monastic life..

a pure simple life of chores and routine and peace....

but also not settled yet on that pursuit I am also thinking of

maybe the life of a person who makes a living at a vocation (that I am thinking about)

and also does religious stuff on the weekends :) or ocassionally goes to the monastery:).

Fish recommended to me that it's important to go the 'middle way' with things..

and so I am trying that on for size -

often I find myself contemplating the idea of taking care of myself

- and the idea comes to me in a kind of monolithic way...

that we have to do it in a 'perfect way' - that there's no room for error -

to enter a monastery where I would be completely void

of fiscal responsibilities - and have a life of routine and peace

- or choosing a job - going for a job that I am thinking about  - where I would take

care of myself - but 'what if I failed'? - who would I turn too? 'what would I do?'

I think we all think about things like that - I can't do nothing in the face of these variables -

and yes wouldn't it be great if I could just scribble here in the corner, in my journal

and make a living like that - perhaps living that dream for a while the answer 

will come organically. :)

I see to go round in circles with these ideas - - but the morning is here -

I appreciate it a great deal - the world is vast and spins round and round.

I can't do nothing in the face of these variables -