malibumark

waking up to the 'morning worries' - my mind does this frequently.It's really unnerving but perhaps it's the way my mind 'boots up' to getthe whole bio system started. Those needling invasive...

I have only a short time to write...I think this expectation of 'a perfect day'or really, 'a day without scrambled brains and depression' is something I just can't afford to lookat and not accept it...

This is really starting to make a cogent picture for me.I was at work - I did a decent job. As I started to fatiguemy mind became a bit mushy and reactive but I was okand got the work done. My boss...

I was going to come to my journal just now and write 'half an entry' -my Dad used to use the turn the phrase "half an answer" which meantalong the lines of "have a question... create an answer as...

I find myself, and I've bet you've notice,that in my free time and days off I get so thoughtfulabout the nature of life. It sucks. I don't if it's fearor anxiety induced.I am going to go for a walk!...

I just woke up about 20 minutes ago. Threw on yesterday's clothes,brushed my teeth and went to the Starbucks.I haven't planned anything for today except for the morning coffee routinebut I thought...

i know we're all responsible for our own entertainment..much like we are all responsible for our emotions and aboutliving our daily lives. It came to me out of the perspective of havingrespect for my...

feeling lousy this morning. don't really know why.started the morning, when unmotivated, and just said to myselfover and over "this is me taking care of myself" - it helped meon with getting dressed...

things are good here - had a day almost entirely solo - did the routine ofcoffee and grocery shopping and chores...sitting here watching some tv and my mind was spinningbut i realize there will...

sometimes I wish I could color by numbers my lifeit would be much easier to know what to do and what to createI feel like I am free wheeling and definitely an abstract expressionistwith life...thank...

A pic from the Toronto Zoo. Happy VDAY!

I went to work today - and new ideas came to me...so it goes..felt a bit gruff with the others there - and sloppy - but chocked itup to the agression needed to get a job done and indeed I did a...

i talked to my therapist yesterday and when we talked about things, one thing she said really resonated with me. When I had told her about some auditory hallucinationsshe said back "How do you make...

I liked Kat's suggestion to figure out projects for while I am alone and have free time.Trouble is I can be so resistant to starting things and make excuses to myself aboutupcoming commitments with...

I have to remind myself it's the weekend. All this free unstructured time and my mentalizations can go into overdrive and make me believe I am on the verge of discovering penicillin. Deep breaths and...