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I was feeling my self confidence and sense of assurance dipping.I think at moments like this I need to feel the blessing of God.I watched a little bit of a televangelist Joel Osteen this...

my problems are overwhelming me tonightand I don't know what to do. So I am cominghere and I'm collecting myself and makinga start. Peace all.

I have today off, it's unusual for me and then I'll be working tomorrow.For the remainder of today I will go grocery shopping and then have therapyat 1115am. I can't wait for therapy - but I also...

I woke up with fear this morning that I am not doing enough.Not making enough money - not putting enough effort into supporting myself.Writing it out helps me see the realities of things. I work hard...

I came home from Emil's and just felt so low and awful. A friend had suggested yesterday that rather than push myselfto be kind to myself and just give myself a break.Well, I came home and was...

for some reason, when I saw my brother the other day, it brought upcomplicated feelings that I couldn't process so well. I love him but strangelywhen I saw him, he seemed different. It was confusing....

My therapist is still on vacation...:(I saw my brother yesterday and just after the visit I was burdened with complicated thoughts.I think we all have complications in life and so work very often is...

my Pop should be here in around half an hour to an hour.Not much going on. I don't want to watch tv...I'm a littlecrazy but I am on a 'least possible' electric usage thing today.I am on the computer...

got up - got coffee - came home - drank coffee -ate a bowl of granola - now to shower and dress.

I was feeling so detached yesterday - after a moment of feeling happy and strong...It started with my mind undermining me -later that day - the detachment may have rub offed on my phone chat with my...

I just walked into my bedroom and found Blue resting onthe spot where I sleep. He's so sweet.I just said "hello" outloud to him and then came backto my desk in the kitchen. Like a minute later he...

I came home from this morning's deliveries which were all over LA.I left my place at 350am to get an early start since my stops werefar away...I got home at 650am. Got a coffee and now I'm home.My...

I am home from deliveries and just drank a big cup of coffee. Left at 350am got homeat 650amThings are quiet here - I'll make lunch at 930a or so (idiosyncratic schedule here.)Anyways, things are...

I went off my diet last night. I had not had a drink for a month - and yesterdayI just decided to buy some beer and dried mango. The dried mango was an indulgencetoo but not as bad as the beer. I...

I've been home for an hour or so - just kicking back - but it's hard for meto kick back and do nothing...I had the tv on - watched a little bit of that - just decided to snack on some Trader Joe's...