malibumark

right now I need to pray. I seem to feel the call to Buddhistprayer more than Christian right now.I need to console myself and yet also with Buddhism theyespouse that each of us is responsible as we...

Got the procedure done!! It was over before I realized it. Great drugs! It was a nice sleep and only three small polyps found which were removed. The Doctor said they are probably nothing and will...

I have often felt trapped within the moment - trapped by my feelings of inadequacy and ability or even sense of how to support myself with a kind of self validation..but now I kind of realize that I...

I think I get worried when things are defined - and also I get worriedwhen things aren't so defined -I have felt very nebulous all morning - but got some things done -and finally I just submitted to...

got the COVID test done.. it's kind of intense when theyput that giant qtip up your nose and twist it around, but glad i did it and that it's now over!I drove to the Trader Joe's after and bought...

I've started my vacation, today was my last day at work.I came home and had an appointment with the Psychiatristat the clinic (online) and then another appointment with my Therapist (online as...

so, I didn't feel so well this morning...but I knew I just had to keep doingwhat I was supposed to be doing. My illness told me I was alone and miserablebut I turned to my better side and decided to...

Am feeling not so good about my life this morning - but by writing this journalI am trying to gather myself, my thoughts and just make a move forward witha positive attitude.I wish I were filled up...

The day really turned me inside out -It was hard to feel any self worth there for a bitI was so dumbstruck by all the changes in me -but thank God I believed in just moving forward...there's a...

today I've woken up to a few things,what's more I have realized that "NOT HAVING PLANS ON MY DAYS OFF"is bad for my mental health.I know I need time to rest -and also time to take care of Blue and...

this morning I reflected about what I need to feel grounded....what i need to doto steady myself. It came to me in the resulting relative calmness thatI really want to make my life about something...

I realize when I am alone I need things, mechanisms to keep me groundedand moving forward. I realized that last night - and this morningI have to say I had an interaction with someone who constantly...

I helped my parents out this morning and got home at around 830am or so.Then I cleaned up the place a bit and put on a load of laundry since a coworkerwas going to drop something off.I went grocery...

I am having a hard time lately. I suppose it could be attributed as part of the transitionsin my life - but also I wanted to tell that at times my sense of judgementhas been really off. Mistakes at...

I came home tonighta little worn away at the edgesunsure of myselffeeling timid about going my own pathwondering who i amin the face of relationships that take awayrather than make flourishand at...