Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group

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MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr

I haven't been on DS in almost a month. 


I'm exhausted.


I'm not doing okay.


I don't eat when they're at their Dad's, unless I go out with a friend or have something at church. Home, alone, I don't want to. 


But I did do some good things this weekend


A one hour nap yesterday


I mopped and cleaned and did laundry. I changed the sheets on the beds. I cleaned out the fridge and made a dinner I can pop in the microwave tomorrow. I bought milk and veggies. I cried a lot. I talked to two friends, some about them and some about me. I cried some more. I cried at church. I called a help line.


I've been sick since I moved. My asthma is ridiculous and somehow after 13 years they may be diagnosing me with small airways. I could also have a heart problem. I don't sleep well. I've killed a lot of spiders in the house. And those are simple stressors. I hate divorce. I'm still not divorced. I don't have child support. I'm hanging in here but I'm not okay. I have friends to talk to but no one to call when I'm triggered.


Today I was sad and so tired. I lost track of time. Like hours of time. It felt really weird. 


Really I'm just checking in. Hoping to sleep tonight. Hope you guys are managing well. 


Goodnight

jewells1
jewells1
Just hugs and support.
J.
SimpsonsOK
SimpsonsOK
Marah, so much easier to deal with outcomes than being in limbo. When the girls are with him it is always so hard on you. Do record any contact, or lack of contact, with the girls. Please focus on their return rather than the emptiness of the house without them. Tears are healing, so cry away. Calming and comforting hugs.
SimpsonsOK
SimpsonsOK
Hoping things are better today. So often a spouse will use delaying tactics, which makes it more difficult on everyone. Comforting hugs.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Hey, Marah, I was gone from DS PTSD from June 2 until the 18th myself, in my case due to IT problems logging on from coming to Mexico for the summer. All the while I was thinking about you and sending you my thoughts and prayers, not knowing you weren't on the site because you were so exhausted. I'm thinking something must have prompted me to do that even though I didn't know.

I'm glad this site's called Daily STRENGTH instead of something else, because weariness is my biggest PTSD symptom. I don't know about you, but for me living with our disorder of PTSD is a draining experience. There's the insomnia, there's just being tired from hypervigilance, blah blah--you know the drill. You do know, because you get it in a way others who don't have PTSD just never will. As you wrote here.

So glad you're back. I went through two divorces (yeah, why make a mistake just once, right?) and it's an awful thing, only dying itself could be worse and even then I wonder. Sending you my support today. Take all the strength from here you can, ok?
MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr
Thanks hall. Somehow these last few days have been better. I’ve slept. I met with my counselor, the associate pastor to discuss a new ministry we are starting and my lead pastor just to chat and ask for support. I’ve been overwhelmed and kinda whirling in hopelessness because people have just been cruel lately and money is tight and one toddler is gearing up for surgery. Life is FULL. That was such a good day. Standing among people who are passive aggressive and yet somehow also aggressive, hearing them tell me I’m abrasive and using their program and all kinds of things that aren’t true, telling me I need to listen more than I talk when I was only talking long enough to ask clarifying questions and they were answering things I weren’t asking....which tells me they needed to listen better themselves. What a mess we were in and the resolution is awful but at least I tried. I’m tired. And really thankful for you all. Thank you so much for your kindness
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Sleep, support from your counselor, your associate pastor, your lead pastor--wow, so glad that's given you a respite, Marah. You deserve it. Thinking now of your toddler's gearing up for surgery. Sending you my thoughts and prayers and supportive vibes from here.