AnxietyFreak40
Status: People in toxic relationships don’t love each other. They love the idea of each other. ~Mark Manson
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Each day gets closer to my move out date. There have been lots of tearful moments and I keep waiting for the anxiety attack to hit me but so far it has not. It will probably hit me after I am alone...
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I have not written anything in my journal in quite a while. So much has been happening and I think if I put it down I might have jinxed it. I am moving into an apartment by the end of the...
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I felt it coming. I tried to just ignore it and go to bed but an hour after I went to bed it became clear it did not want to be ignored. I got up and took an extra dose and went back to bed. ...
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I am tired. I ache all over. I feel very lost with everything that is happening and I am sad. Why am I always this way? Can't ever just be normal? I know..I'm not and never will be again...it...
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So he is not speaking to me but still made me dinner last night and made me a lunch and coffee this morning. I tried to say thank you and got only mumbled responses. He was asleep last night...
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I have not been on here lately. I am struggling with so many things. Last night i got ready for bed and was playing a game on my phone when he came down the hall to go to the bathroom. He said..I...
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He totally threw me for a loop last night. Was not expecting that when I got home. I had given it some thought and mostly decided to pass on the horse for right now. Seems I just keep adding...
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It's Monday again and my life is as confusing as ever. I have really been working to try and figure out what I want to do about making my life better. I am pretty sure at some point that is going...
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I had a little bit of anxiety again last night but did not take anything extra...when it passed I was exhausted though so I ended up asleep pretty early. This week seems extra long...so tired of my...
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So I survived yet another bad anxiety attack. Started to have one late afternoon at work yesterday....that whole stomach virus going around at work freaked me out pretty well. I did take an extra...
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Everyone around me is sick. The oldest has some kind of respiratory thing...she has been resting in her room most of the weekend...HE was going to send her to school..it is windy and storming...she...
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I have not journaled again in many days. I have been so lost this week. I thought that I would enjoy myself while my boyfriend was out of town. It was true that It was nice to have the house to...
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Always with the bad dreams...of which I can't remember a single thing other than they leave me feeling anxious and sick. I am so tired...he is back to sleeping in the living room again. He does...
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so much drama lately I don't know where to even begin. After the whole thing on Weds with my mom's roommate it turns out there is way more going on than I had thought. Apparently he contacted the...
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Anyone who lives with an alcoholic is completely insane. The hope that tonight will be different...that tonight he won't drink so much...that tonight being with me will be more important than the...
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