still changing

I have been living this life of unhappiness for so many years.  I just don't give a fuck anymore and now I am doing what I want to do and having fun.  I have been spending a lot of time with my new friend.  Steve and I are still separating but there is nothing to rent here that I can afford and he cannot afford to have me gone until they get the house sold.  We are going to try and continue as roommates temporarily.  He was really mad that I was out til after 8pm last night...oh well, he will get over it. 

I have another really fun lunch hour today and came back laughing so that my friends at work said I should to out to lunch with him more often.  Yep..some kind of fucked up midlife crisis...but having a good time in between bouts of major stress so ..whatever.