Pray for me
Sisters please pray for me...I am struggling terribly...I wrote a blog entry today, telling a story about my baby, when she was in kindergarten. It has awoken the grief like it's brand new, thinking about that beautiful, precious little angel God gave me...She was perfect when He gave her to me and I did not do a good job...I knew I was not worthy of her and she took her own life to escape the pain of this world...she was my only child, my only hope for grandchildren...I need help, am hurting so bad.
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Gina,
Sweet friend, this is what early grief looks like. Waves of grief hits repeatedly. Remember to breathe! You were worthy of this beautiful girl and it is not your fault, although \"grief\" will whisper this in your ear often. I will pray for you, this is such a raw, tender time where the wound opens often! I know the feeling of grandchildren gone. Yes my remaining son has said forever that kids are not in his future. Sigh. I breathe, you breathe. Baby steps....
Hugs,
Leda
I am praying, Gina. OMG, you are in such very early stage and no, it is not your fault! I don\'t know what to say, really. Of course, you and she were worthy of each other. Parents do not come with handbooks. Go with the pain and come here to us, whenever and as often as necessary. We are here for you. We do know what you are going through, listening to this, brings back as if it was just yesterday. I am here for you.
Peace.
Gina, I can just feel your pain. You were worthy of this beautiful daughter and it is not your fault. I think we all go there - blaming ourselves. I prayed that God would heal my Jeff or take me instead of my beautiful Jeff. I can relate to all these thoughts that you are having. We all felt the same things and somehow or other we were finally able to put one foot in front of the other. I am also here for you. Just hoping for you some peace and sending you a hug. I know it is hard. There is nothing easy about this awful journey.
Your friend,
Nell
Gina, I am wishing and praying for you on this journey. I know how hard this is, I too have no children or grandchildren. Illness whether the body or mind is just that illness. We are not to blame. Be kind to yourself. Sending you hugs. Kathy
Oh Gina, I wish I had some magic words to somehow \"make you feel better\" but there is not a magic phrase or word that takes this gut wrenching pain away. It is nothing that we thought we would ever have to deal with but here we are. One day, one minute, one second at a time you can get through this with SOTH. Praying for you. Sending you much love & ((hugs)). Vicki
I am thinking of you. Our children are so precious and it is just so unfair. Prayers for you.
(((HUGS)))
Holding you in my heart and prayers. No words... but just the deepest bond of heart tethers that keep us close.
With you and caring so very much~
XO Joanie
I feel the pain of your words. I\'m so sorry.
All I know for sure is we DID do everything we knew to do and we did the best we were capable of! Did I fail Kala.....yes, in many ways I did. Did I WANT to fail her.....NO, NEVER. I have learned I must forgive myself for not being perfect, for not being all that she needed or deserved, and to realize and accept I always did my best....even when I failed. No one can ask more of me, not even me. And no one can ask more of you, not even you.
It is good that you are sharing, writing, getting it \"out there\". Releasing the energy is so very important. But please do not let guilt blind your heart. You were and are a good mom!!! And your precious daughter knows, understands and loves you more completely today than ever before.
She sees your heart and feels your love and she only wants you to find YOUR healing and comfort zone. You will. Just keep doing what you\'re doing. You will survive this!
Much love and tight heart hugs~~