malibumark

I think I write about this stuff because I feel so utterly confused by what goes on upstairs.The day moved on from my last journal entry - I took a ride down to the market to buy some drinksand...

everyday I'll morph and learn new things about myself. I don't really enjoy the mood swingsand changing inside so much but I think it's like any work we have.. we just shift our perspective to deal...

I tend to think in real linear terms. It's kind of like I am chomping at the bit - and when I am not kept busy enough - this nature - this instinct to feed comes to me - and starts to grind away at...

it's tempting to write about my experience but I know forcing forward is probably better than finding solace inwriting it all down. So maybe I will do both.I experience a lot of discomfort in my life...

today at work I had to deal with my boss who I know doesn't like me so much. I try really hard to be positive, to do the right thing. To do my job quickly and to be as responsible as I can. She just...

I just wondered if you guys have any reflections on this. Yesterday I found myself getting totally anxious about having a lot to take care of. I have a very 'small' manageable life whereas I once had...

I went to work today and just preceding entering the store - a rogue thought undermined meand I felt just low and measley.I just focused on work and figured that was the best thing to do. It was for...

I don't know what possesses me to do this but the bright side is that I seem to function at work - though at times I am undermined by my internal process so that I think I might sound abrupt or...

I went to work today and then came home.At work I worked at working as competently as I could.I remembered an email I wrote yesterday and felt such little controlover my life and it's direction - and...

I feel really stuck right now. Not sure what to do with my day or self. But I am starting to think backto a couple of times I have written about and thought about this state of unknowing within me...

i think sometimes i want to live in meaning.when I am at work I have to fight of the voice bothering me - alld that stuff, it's well focused by the activity - once the work day ends, my mind looks...

I had a really good meeting today with my new "Resident" Dr, at the UCLA Psych Clinic.The supervising Dr. who I like as well suggested I could really benefit from psychotherapy.Anyways, that's beyond...

my Dad just offered this phrase to me. I had called him because I was anxious about the future.I just thought to share.peace and good night!

went for a walk, around the hood. kind of unwound a bit after the last journal...i kind of have to ask myself..what will it take for me to feel ok or motivated to do something with the day.I guess...

lately I have been starting to realize how important relationships are.I have been seeing things in terms of my relationships at work and also outside of work.I don't always have to be right, but to...