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I have not had sugar since the weekend. It is proving to be a good thing. Right now, I have an intense hungerthough I have had a big breakfast and a big lunch (just no sugar.) What finally made me...

mind sets and moods come and go, anxiety up and down.from discomfort - to a sense of 'at easeness' -I wonder if I should just follow my interests for now. I am looking for work and a career path -...

it's a time of transition -i am not working this weekmy birthday is coming upi will be getting a new resident psychiatrist at the end of the month today I have tried to understand why I am too...

I went to sleep last night thinking some really interesting things about what I wanted to do for work.I'd like it somehow to be about more than just making money. I would like it to be an enriching...

I don't always know how to deal with fear. Except maybe to just say ok I am afraidand move on anyway.

I am going to bed now...new flash...film at 11 :)have a good night and see you online tomorrow.

I know I question sometimes what I should be doing with my day - case in point my last journal post.I wonder as my day goes on - what I should be doing with it... I mean, I can get kind of lost in...

I am not punishing myself. I feel though I get the most satisfication out of life when I am making importantconnections with others. I am not jewish - but a gal who lives here at the 'board and care'...

my mind makes things up sometimes, and then I wind up really believing them.I wish I had a therapist who I could feel connected to. A guide for this 'blind' person.I know I have blind spots and I try...

It's my routine to watch the international news at night before I go to bed. TonightI am finding that watching the programs are kind of depressing me. It's not just the subject matter.I found myself...

I am becoming aware that I am making choices with my day. Sometimes those choices are too sooth myself - and sometimes they are choices that aren't really awake to the fact that I'd rather be doing...

I have been watching the international news, as I do every week night. France 24, NHK, DW and the BBC.I love learning about the different perspectives. It also inspires me to reach for more in...

Just writing this journal is somehow giving me a sense of meaning. I am listening to a recording of Colonial American music - kind of a good choice sincetoday is Memorial Day. I remember when I was...

when I start to think of taking care of myselfi think in terms "I want to be free" - and thenthat bold pony bucking self comes and I know I have to reign it inbecause I live in certain circumstances...

i learned the other day that when we are fatigued, our minds can create stories, make us think thingsthat aren't true,and now I was feeling so lonely - my mind went to a place of wanting it 'all to...