malibumark

i started to wind down, in the pattern that i have on evenings before a work day. I watch the international news programs : France24, then NHK Newsline, then DW news and then BBC World News...

Just took a walk to the beach. It's beautiful this morning, feeling a lot of gratitude and looking forward to things.Just some notes....I was sitting in the living room and feeling an 'edge' about...

it's another day. my chores are done, and now my head is in my hands.i don't always muster what it takes to keep myself thoroughly occupied and my mindwill take advantage of that lacking every time...

there are times when i feel like I just don't know anything...I have approached writing my thoughts today, and reaching out to others but have talked myself out of it as it just didn't seem the right...

I have been feeling moments of real frailty the past few weeks.Like just moments I will catch myself in the mirror and see really fragile movements andlook about myself. So it goes.. but I have also...

I was in touch with some truths about my life yesterday... I learned from my Stepmother and Father just by being with them.I came home from their house and tried to reorient myself to my life.. It...

it's weird how I need to walk myself through certain things...like when a mood can elevate or depress and then I get lost in it - I need to not catastrophize itand right now it's really hot too -...

why why do I make my choices in my life so complicatedrunning over the details of who would like it and who wouldn't the only one I need to please here is me, i think.are my plans because of...

I went to work today, it was a busy day. Lots to do - and just focused and did it..Came home from work, had my lunch and then went to my room where I had a couplecans of guiness stashed in my closet....

I wrote this earlier in the week: It's really coming clear to me that every day, each day, I seem to be writing a book in my mind "how to get through the day" - Things are good. I feel good. I will...

I did feel hyper earlier today.. I learned to focus my energies though and got on with the day...I felt off the charts but I was able to settle down and put a 'lid on my head' to create an...

I got really hyper this morning - and now I need to bring myself down...kind of have to find my center and order.It's ok, it will be ok - I can do this - I just have to put a lid on it..flexible...

I feel untethered and not so strong. I need firmament but I am starting to look at the reality that I needto 'live with' and deal with my insecurity. I don't feel strong but I can be knowing at...

took myself out for a long walk today.I went to work earlier...came back and ate some lunch...watched some television.kind of felt like buying myself some treats, or something to drink but held...

Ok did some big things today - and now just need to go for a walk..shake away the blues and just take care of life - choose positive...