malibumark

I don't know if this is right - but it seems to be what I am thinking about.Life is not comfortable - and I do push myself in some ways - but I am starting to seethat pushing yourself is really...

I need to build myself up. I have a hard time transitioning from being alone to being with family and friends. Likewise it goes the opposite way from being with family and friends to being alone - I...

I was at work today ...and worked my buns off as usual.  I thought aboutsome things like my devotion to the job - and my sense of health and well being that has comefrom having something to do and...

I am having a hard time putting pen to paper (virtually of course) in order to capture my experience. I went to work today and was kind of open to more feelings and intereststhan I usually am. I...

I don't know if i need to write this down.I will though.I was at work earlier today and my feelings started to bother me.I had a mix of feelings - and yet I decided not to let them get the upperhand....

just came in from a walk. it felt great to be in the outdoors after the rain.it's sunny clear and windy, with puddles reflecting the bright light. Everythinggot a good wash down from the torrents of...

I have been thinking about some things today. Flexibility is one of them.I have so often found myself being tossed around by 'in person' relationships.I think I have held on fast to ideas of...

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I was recognizing at work that I felt so down and suicidal actually - like my life wasn't worth it.... but then, when I sat down for coffee break... I thought it's just a bad day...and then I...

I am realizing that I need to be brave enough to live my own life and support myself eventhough I have had the wind kicked out of me from this 'condition.' For a while now I have been recuperating -...

I am not going to buy into the 'down' feelings I have this morning.I want someone to be there for me to tell me I am special and to reassure methat all's ok. I kind of realized I have to do that for...

I went to work today - and trained a new guy - it went well - but I have been noticing lately that my boss at the bakery and me - we just don't mix- like oil and water.. so there's politics - she...

i know I don't have a great sense of self but I do know whatmakes me feel good is if I do something that helps me - like if I accomplish somethingduring the day. 

I have been busy today starting to organize my room and made some 'life admin" calls for insurance etc..Finding your structure in life is important - but it isn't all that I want. I'd love the...

 I went to my sister Anne's house today and spent some time with the whole family. It was really nice. I felt on edge at first- and then slowly that turned to fatigue - and then I just let go. I...