getting used to I think..

everyday I'll morph and learn new things about myself. I don't really enjoy the mood swings

and changing inside so much but I think it's like any work we have.. we just shift our perspective to deal with it

and keep externally moving forward while on the job - or while busy at home.. rather than getting stuck in place. I think we're all gonna learn new things for all of our lives and

It's easier to get stuck when you don't have a job to do..
I am also realizing that I kind of have to look at things outside the iconographic. There's the way I would like to see things in my life.

The way I would like to be regarded - but it can't always come out that way. In fact you kind of have to get used to the way things are...but still keep going... Quiet confidence... I think.

I started to feel some dark feelings while at work today - but I was able to put them aside. I was in control and know that it's not something I want to question or get involved with. I just recognized how some people might get when they don't feel regarded well or kindly..

I think with a level of mental illness has to do with not being able to see a commonality to your moment or experience.

I don't feel like that now. I am learning. I am home now from work and listening to some soul saving work. I can't believe how much

this singer reaches me and touches me to tears.