malibumark

If I didn't have work, I think I would set to work on myself. Does that make sense? I would find someway to work on myself mentally if I didn't point my sights outwardly on something.And so I am...

i don't know why i feel so often 'at a loss' without direction, questioning why i am the way I am or drilling down. I want to reach out to others to reassure me.I don't have a role, or rhyme or...

I have recognized lately, through hard work and some distress, that I have been letting the abuse in lifekeep me company and define me. I don't know how it is for anyone else, but I seem, when alone...

I was watching France24 over the holidays and they had a round table discussionabout the wave of populism and the kind of 'downfall' of the Western Liberal state. It was the determination or the...

I think I have been living in a dream. A dream of following or gliding along in my spirit and not feeling the outerlayer of structure in my life. I feel like I have been living in a bubble, of how I...

Today has been a struggle but also an opportunity to seek new ground.I kind of felt real low like my life isn't really special to anyone and yetas I went for a walk (to just clear my head) I thought...

As I wrote in my last journal, I expressed some pretty high flying positivity.I came home from my family's house yesterday and it was all down hill from there.I did errands this morning and felt so...

I woke up this morning and the promise of a new day felt giddy in my stomach and spirit.I washed up and took myself out for a coffee. Was wished a Happy New Year by the barristaand also by a man...

I feel kind of lost. I feel like I spend so much of my energy trying to hold myself together. With a sense of value for myself and others.Then little things happen like a lady in the parking lot...

I think that I think because I have this 'struggle'/condition that I have been shuttering in.I'd like to take myself out there and do some greater good. I won't buy into a victim oran idleness but...

I have kept somewhat busy today- I did the chores that I needed to do - Then became thoughtfulabout what I am doing - and then became so dissatisfied with what I am doing. I don't feel greatand I...

I know this is a place to share, but I feel so selfish to approach what I want to talk about.Yesterday and last night were really nice. I went to my family's house and exchanged giftsand we talked...

I really appreciate all of your feedback over my last journal.This journal is just about how I came home from work - and went fromfeeling energized and purposeful - to the space in this house which I...

tonight i tried to sleep but couldn't. really dark thoughts kept happening.i wondered about juxtaposing the way i think during the day to how i thinkwhen it is just me alone at night. i think there...

I am watching a really good show on PBS. It's a Brit-Com called "Doc Martin." I love how flawed the characters are.They're so realistic and make me feel a sense belonging if that sounds a little...