malibumark

I am off work now, at home. I am feeling ok.  I need to do something with my day, or else my day will do something with me! :) heheI was at work earlier and I found there is a beauty to being...

I was feeling really depressed when I got home from work. I felt the emptiness of my life, like a free radical withoutan element or compound to call my own. Then my parents called me from the...

I went to work this morning. I wasn't feeling very stabile, or good. I kept pushing myself though.I finally thought of the idea that working through the discomfort and being committed to what...

i wrote about depression today on the boards.i don't want to beat myself up - maybe I should rest for a while.I wonder why I seem to need some other force in my life to get work donerather than...

Starting the day here, feel like I need to 'turn a new leaf.'I know this is partly my paranoia - but I see or maybe assume how my family can find my condition aggravating because I talkabout it a...

good night friends. it's been an up and down day. tried to listen to others and see their points of view. also tried to deal with my own natureand how i get when i'm by myself. i know it won't be...

creating a plan - I know I need to plan things for me to do.I kind of have to shake off those stumbling blocks for me.Whatever it is that makes me freeze up.. the unknowing??en marche!

So it's one day late :)

I wrote to my friend Jan, that I had was struggling with an issue. That issue that finally crystralized in my note to herhas me now thinking about the essential or part of the essential nature of...

i don't want to be a downer, it was hard to focus on the positive at work. my focus was on the dissaray and mostly i didn't feel so great. I shrugged it off, or tried to... felt angry, tired,...

I went for a short walk earlier, I had some snacks. I don't know why but I feel miserable.I kind of have to own it. I guess I can't always be happy but maybe I should decide to keep at some...

I won't sugar coat it, when work started today it was a pretty bad day. I felt lazy - and I cut corners - and a coworker caught me on it.I felt like crap - and I tried to just muster the better...

A word of wisdom came to me today while at work. I initially felt kind of weak, dizzy and not really 'into' the work. But I kept working of course - but then I realized that 'no matter how I feel at...

I wrote an email inquiring about an opportunity to volunteer somewhere.I wrote some emails to friends and family. I ate something and rested in the sunand went for a walk. For some reason as the day...

there's something really bad about the television. there's so much more i could be doing.and yet, i find when I don't have a task to do, or someone to relate to, the tv is where I plop downand focus...