building myself up... I guess this is just what you do

I went to work today and just preceding entering the store - a rogue thought undermined me

and I felt just low and measley.

I just focused on work and figured that was the best thing to do. It was for a while.. during the day I kind of noticed

how I felt not liked and at the mercy of the winds of life.. this might so mellow dramatic - but I found myself thinking 

about God as my personal cheerleader - but not really thinking or better put - knowing that I had to do the work

and take care of the day..it was on me.. 

I felt peace and then my Boss came in. She doesn't like me... I don't know why.. I do a good job - but she just is different. We are just not compatible. I just am nice to her and keep doing the work.

I've come off work now... grateful to be back at the house. The guy in the other room is talking to himself - but the housemanager is

sane and lovely. I ate a good lunch and I am in my room..

Knowing all my faults I am just taking back the day  - and going to go out and buy myself a Starbucks. It's time to reclaim my day - and build myself up and I guess that's just what we do.

This journal helps me to feel like I am just in touch with processing and creating something. I wish I could ice skate. I think this would be an amazing moment to just go out onto the ice and really create some great figure eights!!