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I've got to be really careful and not let my mental meanderings turn into some kind of instability.I know I need a focus when I am not at work and now that's exactly what I must do for myself.Yes...

I am  discovering the power of living an outward looking life.Work has helped me do that. Having my Father to talk to and be grounded by himhas also helped. When outside of work, I am just letting...

last night I chatted with my Aunt about her relationship with her husband, and she talked about how they have different needs.they have to negotiate activities because they're not always on the same...

I have been watching this pattern that my Dr. hinted at one day - that I ebb and flow quite a bit - and now I am seeing it big time.It's not overwhelming me by surprise but I am adjusting to it (like...

I was steady when work first started today - and then there were so many little inputs from the interactions I hadwith folks and coworkers at the market. Plus I started to feel uninspired and frankly...

when I am on my own I can give myself a give myself permission to stewin my feelings. Now I am learning to keep it's better to keep active.Keep aware.

i was really struggling tonight - while watching the news and then trying to sleep. it's free time really.i thought of how i deal with the unstructured or out of the ordinary moments at work - i used...

things are good today, feel healthy and not so burdened by anxiety. I think I have to find work that involves some senseof who I hope to be and what I care about...I know survival is essential - and...

I am trying to envision a future for myself or even basic activities outside of just fulfilling my responsibilities.I find when I don't have a focus, I tend to ruminate. I write a lot about what I am...

I struggle with social anxiety big time. I feel crippled by it, and yet I went to a party tonight and experienced both good times and difficult times - and thought about calling my Dr. but I realized...

I am learning that I have to take care of my life "my life" not someone else's.I opened the bible today. I needed it. I have to take care of my specific needs that are unto me - and don't judge...

I take finesteride (Propecia) for hair loss. I read today it sometimes causes depression and suicidality and impotence.I didn't know this. The pharmacist who reviewed it with me mentioned only sexual...

I think I am not alone here in that I can feel so down about myself for being flawed.I realize my shortcomings but though I reach out to others like my Dr. or family or folks here on DS.org, I...

I went to work today and just got into the flow of things.I am not sure I can describe what I learned. I realized its real important to go with the flow - push forward - no matter how you feel - and...

....was at work today, and pushed myself through the day.I felt a lot of acceptance for where I am, what I am doing and just about life.Yesterday's journal taught me about maturity for dealing with...