home from work

i think sometimes i want to live in meaning.

when I am at work I have to fight of the voice bothering me - alld that stuff, it's well focused by the activity - 

once the work day ends, my mind looks for another focus. Angry fighting weirdness within starts

and I think I just have to somehow focus that outward. I decided to take myself to Starbucks.

Spent too much on a latte - and now I have come back home. Don't feel like passively sitting in front of the TV.

Feel like writing but even that feels somehow not the right thing. I can't always make sense of things or how to best solve

my own problems. I think maybe just keep on looking for answers is an answer and get on with the day.