malibumark

sometimes the day can change me all aroundsome times when I will go down different roads mentallyor have a conversation that I give myself toit just seems like any day can do thisour anger or...

thoughts in dissarayfeelings as wellinteractions with others weirdnew goals present themselves but time and patience are requiredstars not aligning todaybut the flame is kept aliveto keep at the...

The Board and Care where I live is closing down. I looked at the outside of an apartment and the area it is in yesterday afternoon. It's a very quiet suburban peaceful area. I have been blessed by...

it's a good day...and things are good. I have invested in a personal 'mental zone' and have let go of things, this was nearly sent to me whether I wanted to or not. I just seemeed to start letting go...

I went to work today, and it went alright. I was nervous at first because of a lingering 'loose end' that I needed to take care of when work was over with regards to my health insurance...I kind of...

I am having a difficult morning, but I am so grateful for this place to come to.I feel like I have probably become too much about scutinizing and writing about my internal life - and I need to keep...

I went to work today. I felt strengthened by what I wrote in my last journal. I feel like I have a boundary issue - and I will again and again seek out ways to placate that desire in me to achieve...

 i have kind of come to a place where i recognize I can't 'think my way' out of my disorder..again and again I come back to a moment of health, clarity and calm - to then some undermining thoughts,...

lately i have been emerging in a sense to not expect 'whatever i like' from myself - but to guide myselfwith my nature in mind. I'd like to aspire to great things, but I don't know if I can reach my...

i was lying in bed tonight trying to go to sleep. i felt stretched to my limits but then suddenly saw aspects of my lifeto be grateful for and acknowledgement of things that were challenging.as i...

when I am alone i have to keep my mind framed in thoughts that take care of and help me manage my emotions..feeling can feel quite dangerous - though it's just heightened feelings.i am watching tv...

things are good today. I mean my mood has wondered all around but I seemed to be able to reframe things, understand them as they happened - and kept refocusing my sights on positive things. I am...

I was at work one day this past week and though at times I feel badly, embattled and splintered sometimes, I know to push forward and adjust to keep the focus on the work and get the job done. This...

my feelings can make me feel stuck in their intensity - and I realize now - like for anything else that I have to deal with externallyI have to adjust for my feelings as well, though it's an...

I think I write about this stuff because I feel so utterly confused by what goes on upstairs.The day moved on from my last journal entry - I took a ride down to the market to buy some drinksand...