malibumark

it's weird, i am totally noticing that in my 'down time' when i don't have activityi tend to think about hurtful things or like let a thought fester into a paranoia or anxiousnessor conversely i can...

I didn't know what to put as the title, perhaps it should have just been "Athletic." - I have the propensity to get set in my ways (for good reason) seeking out pattern, habit, comfort - and I know...

so today is thursday and I did something that is telling that I am starting to develop some old, but good practices.my income is very low - but I am paid on Thursdays - and I have decided that every...

I have been fighting some darkness today but with some success, learning to not fixate on it - and keeping busy with other things.I have been dealing with myself with a lot of pressure and I thought...

I had a good day at work, got a lot done, though it was the shorter of all the days I am scheduled for.I work 4 days at 4.5 hours and one day, Wednesday, I work 4 hours. I work the morning shift from...

i know this is kind of crazy but as I worked today, I kind of felt like I could and want to be doing something else with my life.As I worked though, a side of me was egging for attention, it was like...

just after work now and listening to a Bernadette Peters. She takes me to another place and I just feel dreamy and good.Life couldn't be better. I know I have stuff to do - but god this lady can...

I kind of made some good realizations today about my abilities and how to manage my illness.a housemate talked to me and asked me how it was when it was all better (in so many words.)I replied -it's...

i had thought about yesterday the way some people seem to be able to make their lives as they would like it.today i realize 'that' was about giving our lives structure in a way. one way for me to do...

I was thinking today about how we can choose the type of life we have, we can choose the direction or the dynamic of it too-it all went down hill from there - and I kind of lost myself in the mists...

i texted an ex husband of a college friend of mine who I haven't seen since around 2003. He's a nice guy - but I still had nerves doing it. We have been in touch on FB, and email - but we were...

Yesterday was a fruitful day. I was able to adjust to my drilling down - and I was focusing on what I needed to do.My emotions just seemed like one more thing to take care of and that seems just...

my boss said to me today about my vacation "It was a hard week without you." So kind of her. We are kind of like rubber and glue sometimes - but we have remained as professional as possible and today...

the cautiousness i have in life has come from really frightening experiences should i let those fears steal away my ability to dream? or to take chances?I think of religion and how that kind of has...