weird notions

I tend to think in real linear terms. It's kind of like I am chomping at the bit - and when I am not kept busy enough - this nature - this instinct to feed comes to me - and starts to grind away at rumination, worry and anxiety. I now realize it's because I don't have enough to focus on - boredom - and so to surmount my fixation and linear thought, I am trying to stop it. I don't know if capturing this in a journal entry is valuable but I have to start somewhere to try and break the pattern of just remaining couched in my non productive passive behaviours. I sit still way too much. Time to see and grasp other opportunities.