on being 'who you are'

the past few days I have had a lot of mood swings and worry.

Worry about the future. Worry about work. Worry about the mistakes I have made.

I think I may have an outlook in life...a film "Director's" vision and appreciation for the world

at large...but then there is 'who I actually am.' I can't always achieve what I see in my mind.

My moods have been swinging a lot lately

and so I think I may ask my Dr. to up my Zyprexa a little bit. It may just help me out a little

manage and keep at the daily slog of work and life. I am trying to be 'adult' about it and self responsible (same thing I think) and I just may need an 'assist' right now.

I am trying to figure out what to do work-wise with my future..sometimes I have to break myself down into such

psychological perspective that I can't always keep in touch with what I like to do. More often than not it's 'me' just trying to do the best job I can in each situation. I kind of sense that this is what most folks do. 

I hope you all are having a good day.. Got to go to the mail box to pick up the delivery!