journalling fills a void :)

I know I journal a lot about me trying to make sense of my life

and I feel kind of drawn to write more today. 

A couple things come to mind though. 

Journalling helps me feel expressed about what I am experiencing.

It's not an 'end point' process though.

I mean, I realize I gotta push myself to do things in the 'outside world.' 

For some reason I am going through a spell where I am not so motivated to act in life but

writing here, and so journalling, is like touching a match to a candle - it will start a reaction within me where I will finally kick my butt into action. 

Another issue is that writing online is a really weird thing. It fills a void and yet also drags me into

a touch of mental masturbation that might not be so healing but rather a bad habit.

I guess as per what I wrote above, I ought not worry about over doing it. It is not an 'end point' process for me. I think I have good reminders as to what

I am doing. So journalling might fill a void on a level, it also inspires and is a point of departure.

I nearly feel like I'd like to have a blog or maybe like a 'cyber crafting

corner' - where I could create things (different and all kinds of creations) and share them online.

I think I might just do things the old fashioned way. I will keep at going to my figure drawing class and take

random photos with my phone.