feeling a little lost

I know we all have to take care of ourselves, it feels as though the energy inside me

which needs such wrangling, takes all the enthusiasm and cognition to 'get on' with the day

outside of that. Breath, phew. It feels better to say that now, here.

I am going away on Sunday, I'll be back next Friday. I am glad I will be

with a bunch of people where I am going. 

I went to the Costco today, and per the suggestion of my therapist, she said to

go to a cafe and get a coffee and just 'be' around people. I took her advice

and it was nice to be out with people today. I was alone but it was kind of good

just to slurp up (hehe) my frozen yogurt and just sit there for a spell.

Now I am back at home and I napped for a good hour. I don't know

why my mind so attacks me. It's the biological aspect of my condition

I suppose. I wish there were a way to mitigate it.

My therapist is away now and I won't see her

again until the 15th of March. I think I will call her and just leave a message.

It's my way of having 'contact.' I pray for divine intervention or some kind of

luck. I know I have to own my own condition - I'll give her a call and just

tell her what's on my mind.

Sending peace to you guys. Peace and good healing vibes for a few good moments

during the day.