life is about moments....trying to process

My sister once said, a long, long time ago, that life is about moments.

I totally understand that and agree. Trying to be mindful right now. Though the things that happen within,

when my life is disrupted, don't seem to take a good or orderly seat in my mind (right?) where the

mind could order those feelings and process them as being but 'just a moment.' Make sense? The 'bad' moments

or the 'down' moments seem to take the stage, front and center, as though they're the true showstopper

and star and want all the attention. I thought about this today - and I thought how often I tend to ruminate about ideas and feelings when sparked by dissapointment or whatever -

in a way that might be a kind of processing initially but don't really keep me from delving deep and so not coping effectively either -

I think if I think about life being moments, then the bad moments are getting too much attention

and I want to give more focus to my interests rather than just a smoldering rumination over the sad stuff.

I am not covering new ground here but in essence I am dealing with a day that had me recognize that

I much prefer being alone so I don't have to dissappoint anyone besides myself.  When I am alone it's like dream time

and I find myself relating to the world in that way I want to -- relating with the things, ideas and aspirations I hope for.
When I am with others or think about others - I become again this doodley-dude. LOL

I think though if I am to process things as moments I think I can get used to in part that sadness running somewhere in the background while I seek out the adventure and good moments. I feel like this post has totally 'canceled' my intent for writing but I will try to just keep positive... another day! Woot! Things are actually good. I am sending prayers and good vibes and good moments to you guys!