dealing with unstructured time

I went to my therapist yesterday - and she gave me a lot to think about.

Out of the ordinary, later that day, my Stepmom asked me to spend the night

at their place because she needed some help with her dog. So, I slept there and went to work

from their house... which was kind of different.

I went to work and things went ok, and then I came home. Usually on Saturdays

I enjoy indulging in treats (no more alcohol) and today I make a big bunch of pasta.

It was different for me and very fun. I then layed down on the couch and tried to nap.
My Aunt called me and for some reason it really took me out of my mind. Triggering a bit.

Then I couldn't really find my centering and so I decided to go out for some diet coke.
Not a good idea. Diet drinks are poison. They're not good for my mind..just like the alcohol

was not good for me. I went to the local Panda Express where they have fountain drinks.

Got it there. Had a weird interaction with the lady there and just was more susceptible 

to upset I suppose. I came home and now I am wondering why I can't seem to cope.

I think it might be the unstructured time. Nothing really to engage me except the TV

and internet and I think it might be time to go for a walk....

By the way, since cutting out alcohol I think I am starting to lose weight. Everything is fitting

just a little better. I have also heard that soda pop can cause bloating..so I think I will cut it out

of my life even more, like the alcohol. It's poison.

Cheers,
M-diddy