expression for health

I am trying not to give power to this. I am having a troubling morning. I am trying

to give myself structure and a positive outlook - and an outlook of acceptance 

so that I can keep on going and being productive today. But maybe this is just

a bad day. 

I don't know if this happens to you but at times I will be in a frame of mind that is

relatively calm and then a moment - a memory, a doubt, something incongruous 

will make me trip up, faulter and then spin out of control. This morning, it was a fear

that I had done something wrong yesterday to hurt someone I love. So not true

and perhaps it was fueled - given more power in that I hadn't spoken to anyone yet

and that 'keeping in check' that I talked about yesterday was something that I was having

a hard time doing for myself. Things have sped up since then and I find my personality changes

to one that is unfamiliar to me... But I am trying to talk myself through it - and bring up to myself

familiar concepts and coping mechanisms - that are helping me (for the purpose of helping me)

put my new state into a familiar frameset. 

My day off -is a free and open day - and I have done what I planned to do already - without

much else planned. It's important to give myself structure and grounding. I feel like just napping.

Whereas yesterday I was encouraging myself to 'go for it!' in life - now I am shrinking.

It totally sucks...

Everyone has days that suck.. I do need to do a couple of errands more if I think of it.
Maybe I will do them later.

Expression of this helps but I think I'll take a nap and then take a walk.

Peace and good kharma,

Mark