after a weird day...finding my center again
I had a weird day. Yoga first thing this morning was ok, but then as I was leaving I had a weird interaction.
I then went to my parents' house and just kind of melted into the background. I felt dark in my heart but
felt the permission to just go with my slovenly feelings and just talk as the spirit moved me - I really had no sense of strength beyond that anymore to be any more than that.
I came home now after and then went and grabbed a coffee at the bakery. The manager lady there is so nice - a real business person - makes friends with everyone and is responsible and inspires a like of the place.
I came back here to the apartment and just find myself tempted to call my therapist - and as I was listening to her voicemail message I realize that I really just wanted someone specific in my life who would
help me find my center and personal meaning in my life. So I didn't even have to leave a message. I knew I would come on DS and just talk a bit. I hope you guys are having a good day.
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I'm still praying for you to get a new friend, Mark. Glad your day ended up on an up beat. I had a good, long day at work. No red cards though. Have a good week.
thanks so much becky! have a good week as well!
Letting myself be true to myself is the surest route to self-improvement I've ever found. Turns out it is much easier to work on real me than pretend me. It makes it a shit load easier to keep myself centered, as a bonus. Ya s'pose maybe my center is at the heart of me more than the surfaces that other people can see?
Did you bring me a fortune cookie, oh slovenly one? Of course, an unslobbered one that hasn't met with the laundered breath mints at the bottom of your pocket, dufess. . .
Thanks Arfie