been labile

I've had a really labile mood lately. I have felt everything to the extreme. It's been awful

and scary. I am trying to put a logic to it and gain some relief- what most comes to mind is that I just need to 

treat taking care of life - and tending to my mental life as part of the take care every day. There may not be room

for much else.
Work allows me a focus though invasive thoughts happen - but not as much as when I am not working.

So, as I started to drive home this morning - I noticed my mind started speeding up - and kind of

'grasping at straws' to have a focus I suppose or something to hold on to. I realized that I can't just let go

and be myself. My emotions get too extreme - The past couple of days I have been responding with great 

darkness - and it's been scary. I suppose I am sharing this, in the hopes that it's just useful information.

Suncloud also posted about the idea of "Life being service." I am trying to find a similar silver lining.

My life is about handling my mental state. It's very very frustrating and difficult but I suppose that

'framing' just reminds me to keep 'in check' - 'on track' - and so forth.